Happy Birthday to me!
Last week I turned 25 and it is so bitter sweet.
Bitter because I longed for as long as I can remember I have wanted to have children before I turned 25. Stupid right?! I mean its a number and a pretty young one at that…Its a flawed dream but it was a dream none the less. And as I enter this new year I am fighting off the sadness that is accompanying my empty womb. I will not let it define me though. I will wait on my Savior and let Him move in our lives.
Sweet because 25 will be one of the most challenging years of my life. With lots of change, new focuses, fellowship and a shift in roles at home and work I am looking forward to the memories this year will bring. So with all that being said I want to make a short list of things I hope to accomplish this year.
1. Become my husband’s biggest fan. He is going through a lot of change with occupations and sometimes I can be negative. Well not anymore. He is the most important person to be and if I have to wear a cheer leading outfit every day to encourage him gosh darn it I will!
2. Move on from the Church. I love my job in ministry here but I feel called to something different. Whether that be staying at home with children, nannying, or other administrative work, I just know my time here is coming to a close.
3. I want to invest more in the lives of my sisters and best friend. With so many changes coming up in our lives, I want to be involved and present for all of them.
4. Establish a schedule of cooking and cleaning at home. Because of our jobs it is very difficult to have a pattern in our lives but this year I will find one and implement it.
5. Work out 5 times a week. I have always loved working out (not as much as sleep) and I want to find a time in my day to take care of my body.
6. Take a vacation this year with just me and the husband. Some where crazy fun and romantic at the same time.
7. Create an oasis in our backyard. Add some new plants, change a few things, and add a hammock (every oasis needs a hammock!).
8. Have more quality time with my husband. With all the changes I want to find something we can do together that we both love. I want to say good bye to our usual movie dates and spice it it up with laughter and conversation.
9. Decorate for the holidays this year, even if its just a few things here and there. I want to create a home for Aneurin and I, and I feel that with all my major decorating done I can start to add the fun holiday touches.
10. Grow closer to my Savior and spend more time seeking Him. I will create a time in the day for my Lord and keep it consistent. He deserves more than the scattered time I offer now.
And lastly
11. Be 25. I want to live this year not rushing toward 26 or craving to be 21 again (that was one of my most favorite times). I want to enjoy this time and find my purpose in Christ during this year.
So that’s my list of goals for the year. I want to take my time and make most of these goals a life change not just a box to check off. So here is to the new year I have been blessed with and I look to see how the Lord will use me!